Paulina Porizkova, estranged wife of late The Cars frontman Ric Ocasek, chatted with CBS Sunday Morning over the weekend about their longtime relationship and unraveling the “tricky” guilt she feels after the 75-year-old rock star died Sept. 15, 2019, and left her — as well as two of his sons from a previous marriage — out of his will.

“It’s made the grieving process really, really tricky, because I would love to just be able to be sad and miss him and not also feel this incredible hurt at his betrayal,” she said in the interview. “Oh yeah, I feel betrayed. I sure do.”

The ’80s It Couple married in 1989 after initially meeting when she was just 18 on the set of The Cars’ “Drive” music video in 1984, which she confirms was “pretty much love at first sight.” The two separated in 2017 and had begun divorce proceedings before his untimely death, when Porizkova reportedly found him unconscious and unresponsive in the home they lived in together.

The 54-year-old supermodel said she put all of her earnings from her modeling career into their 28-year marriage and disclosed how upset she was to never get an answer as to why Ocasek made his decision. Earlier in the interview, Porizkova said she found “security” in The Cars frontman’s older age, and that safeguard kept her beside him even through their separation.

“Rejection and loneliness were such traumatic specters in my life, and being with a man who possessed me, who fully possessed me, was really comforting,” she told Mason. “He was still the man that I loved and that I had grown up with, and I couldn’t really imagine life without him.”

Watch Porizkova’s CBS Sunday Morning interview below.

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